I decided to simply stop writing for a time, it was a good choice. I had some re-evaluating to do, and changes to make. Another good choice. I’ve just moved into a new room, smaller then the last place room i rented but thats okay. Its only temporary until i can get my own place. I’ve realized some things, about relationships, people and life. I’ve realized that failure is a necessary part of the journey to success, that it is in fact a stepping stone in the right direction. Theres a quote about failure and success. “If you want to reach successs quickly double your rate of failure”. Can you believe that? It seems so strange but its the truth. So, here i am back to write out my journey again. My journey towards gaining the successful life ive always dreamed of. I think back to how i started this journey, first by reading the Laws of Success, by Napolean Hill, then by reading about the law of attraction. It was then that i started to truly picture the succcessful life i desired. When i was feeling my worst i thought, how all ive done has been for nothing, how ive been wasting time, I remembered how my journey only started 9 months ago. 9 months! Thats nothing. I cant quit now, Im just getting started. And you know what i think? Ive got a head start with some great teachers along the way. The universe blesses and provides for me and im ready to learn and succeed. Im joining the marines, excercising and things are changing for thebetter everyday. In fact im getting in even better shape everyday. I feel good right now, and thankful. Sure ive had to change some thinking but man is it worth it. And im also glad to be writing again. Lifes good.
My hiatus is over, the recording of my rise to success begins again and i have great news! I’ve joined the marines, and im scheduled to head off to bootcamp soon. Im not entirely sure what awaits me there but im excited to find out. I know this will led me closer to my goals of gaining a successful life. And the experience and journeys i will undertake by becoming a marine will be unforgettable and amazing. Anyways im really excited!
My last post which feels like an eternity ago was what i think is the begginng of some changes. This last two months i have hit some serious highs and lows. Now im about to cross into another journey towards success. Two things, im preparing to start attending Strayer University in the summer, a school that specializes in getting working adults their degrees(pretty much me). Im going for my bachelors in criminal justice. I dont know how long it’ll take but ive read enough quotes on reaching goals to know that doesnt matter. Secondly, the end date to my short stay in my father’s home is rapidly approaching and im still looking for a new room or place or something that i can stay in. Now the question is, will i be able to handle rent, school, work, and relationships successfully. Yes i will handle it with absolute success. Im tired, im feeling some stress, and i got plenty of work ahead of me…..but i know that this is just a phase, it’ll pass. Ive always put a lot of weight in my thoughts, whether they were positive or negative. Right now at this moment i dont care, all i know is my actions are positive. And stepping forward is the most positive thing i can do. And also being thankful for what i have. Thank you universe for my life and success…..:)
Things have become a little confusing as of late. I have feelings for someone, but i was overzealous and i overplayed my hand with them. I pushed too hard too soon, and i may have lost my chance with them. Maybe i did, maybe i didnt. And thats just it, I dont know. I felt so sure of myself in the beggining, but now i feel lost a bit. Afterwards I find myself questioning my feelings somewhat, am i too forward, or was i just extremely happy? Should i give up or wait for an opportunity to try again? If i wait does that make me desperate, or does that make me courageous? If im wrong, if theres no chance for me, will it hurt? Should i go forward anyway?
What i feel in my heart is that i should wait. Its what i want, its not easy though. I feel like society and everyone says that that is wrong, you shouldnt wait for them. You should date everyone right now, you shouldnt settle, you should do what….what we do. But im me, i have my own way of doing things, my own goals to reach, my own path to follow. The universe blesses me everyday in so many different ways, and when i need help it always provides. When i feel worries and doubts and questions like this, i just try to quiet my mind and go with the flow. It aint easy, but i just let my heart/universe/god whatever you want to call it, take control of my body so i end up where i need to be. I have to trust that in the end it’ll all be okay, what else can i do.
Today feels like amazing. Ive got the morning off gonna go out run some errands and enjoy the sun while im doing it! Thank you universe. Some good things are developing for me. It feels almost strange to be feeling so very happy, but i like it. How crazy is that, to feel so good and be freaked out because of it. Is this what society has done to us, what weve done to ourselves? Afraid of happiness? Well im okay with happiness, im just gonna go with it and ignore the uncertainty.
Thank you everyone for the likes and follows! I wasnt sure at first if i wanted to have this blog be public but now im glad it is. Your all into such great stuff, its good to know there are other writers out there following their passion. Your all great and thanks.
Man today is looking good my friends! I got up this morning, worked out, ate breakfast and went to work. Now im off to spend the day, which is gorgeous, picking out a present for my dad’s bday tomorrow. Now this might seem strange to some, but it feels good to be able to buy my dad a present, to have the funds to make not only myself happy, but someone else i love happy as well. These things might seem small but just having a peaceful day at work and spending the day in the sun afterwards is enough to make a man’s week. And you know the universe just has to respond with good news when your thankful.
Go be thankful too. It feels good.
I find myself asking this question in my head today. My only answer is to be patient and to continue on my path. Ive got three good jobs, steady income, and i can keep my drivers license. These are all very good things. Im still on a path to getting my own place. I can still go back to school. I still have things to do, goals to accomplish. So i got dazed for like a day. Im still standing. Im still moving forward. im thankful for my life. 🙂
Okay so last post i was in turmoil kinda over a girl. So i decided to be honest with her about how i felt and ask her out despite her dismissive attitude. Turns out shes interested and she agreed to hang out with me. Score! Situation resolved in the best way possible. Next came a court date. I was a little worried about some hefty fines and penealties i was facing but i had resolved to be prepared for it and just make due with whatever. I walked into court and got off with a slap on the wrist. Could this day get any better!?
So went to work today, a shift i picked up from another coworker who didnt want it, explicitely to see the girl im intetested in. I figured hey i could use the hours and if i can see her at work then i can ask her out. So i go in feeling good and confident. Everyone is happy to see me. Seems like its gonna b a good day. Then i try talking to her, i said “hey how are you?”. Got nothing. Then i asked her how her other job is going. She walks away. Maybe she didnt hear me….hah yeah maybe. In the past i thought i was making sum progress with her but this was like a complete dismissal of me. At that i was admittedly hurt, and angry too. I mean she seemed friendly enough to others but i got the cold shoulder. Why? I dont know. My reaction was to give her space after that and avoid any eye contact or interaction with her.
Honestly i was pissed off. I mean if ur not interested fine, but to just treat me like a leper all of a sudden, thats plain insulting. And lets make no mistake, im the man, ive got girls flirting with me and trying to be around me all the time. Hell a few girls were doing that to me today. So im not the one missing out here. There were moments during the day where i think maybe she mightve been just shy, maybe she just doesnt know how to show interest. She did stand next to me in silence for a few moments. But i was hurt, and trying to start a convo again after shed blown me off was far off my mind. She walked away. Later she was around my work area, i decided to ask her again how her other job was going. I just felt like at least being friendly if shes there and no one else is around to talk to. She gave me a one word answer and barely even looked in my direction. I felt disappointed and angry by the end of my shift. I had told myself i would see things through with her and try to ask her out before looking towards other options. The funny part is since deciding that, sooo many options appeared. But still i had hopes for her.
I didnt get to ask her out today, obviously. But i still want to strangely enough. Its not because im so desperately in love with her, but because i want a straight answer. I dont want to be wondering, maybe she was shy, maybe i should have done this-no. Give me yes or no. If yes, hey thats cool lets see what happens. If no, then thats just fine, plenty of fish in the sea. Ill see her tomorrow, id have asked today but my boss told me to leave early. I thought about going back and getting my answer quickly. But i remember how impatience has burned me before. But innaction can burn you to. Well i chose patience.
No turning back now. I feel like love hurts more than people tell you when your a kid. I just hope something good comes out of this.
If anyone has an opinion or some thoughts on my story, please feel free to comment id love to get some feedback.